Take-away’s from 2016

Take-away’s from 2016:

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  1. My body is my friend. Believing good things are happening in me in the midst of feeling ill is faith. It is part of the path to healing, which involves the spirit as much as the body (‘You are the Placebo’ is a good book)
  2. There are amazing people in this world, spreading cheer, love and light all around. I found in my most vulnerable places, full of need, I could see them (feel them) more clearly.
  3. Food is so awesome.(especially Krispy Kreme doughnuts).  Yes, eating is nourishment but also an avenue for connection and pleasure. We eat for more reasons than just staying alive. It’s a beautiful need/want see-saw that vacillates between our body and spirit.
  4. Sometimes we have dreams… and then we must grow to accommodate them.
  5. Menopause is cruel. BUT, menopause shows us where we are most vulnerable, then asks us to be ok with that. All that is left is the strength and beauty that was always there, just hidden.
  6. I am strong. And so are you. We are strong
  7. Friends can make difficult places easier and easy places meaningful.
  8. I think I believe in mental telepathy, or a cousin to that.
  9. We can be surrounded by people and feel alone. We can be alone and not feel lonely.
  10. A baby’s entrance into this world grounds us here into the tangible but simultaneously elevates us into intangible worlds of divine magical mystery. (Thank you, angel Lennon.)
  11. Watching a toddler allows us to see again that what we witness every day is a miracle. (I love my sweet Moses.)
  12. We all desire validation. We must accept it as a gift from God. It was never meant to come from others.
  13. Spouses can/do change. Spouses can reveal us to us.
  14. Nothing/no one can destroy love.It DOES win
  15. No one can steal us, unless we let them.
  16. Sometimes old horses help us believe more deeply.
  17. Las Vegas is emotionally loud.
  18. Pursuing that which fuels the soul makes time irrelevant.
  19. Everyone is relevant
  20. Spanish Moss in the trees make everything seem heavenly
  21. Eating bread (from Ingrained Bakery) on a park bench with my parents is special.
  22. Ask myself “how do I want to feel?” It will answer the “what should I be doing” questions.
  23. We are all so very much alike.
  24. This too shall pass (even elections)
  25. “What if” questions should be asked more frequently
  26. Ask more questions to those we don’t understand.
  27. RV living is an adventure. (plan winter in a warm place)
  28. Sometimes we need a nice neighbor late at night.
  29. Seeing a newborn calf can make us want to live on a farm.
  30. Zip-lining is really fun. do it.
  31. The “most” ______person we know, could be our child. (Teachers and inspire-ers are not always before us chronologically 😉 (ie. Brooke, Jake, Josh, Jordan, Natalie, Eli, Bethany)
  32. We are never too old to try.Never.
  33. If we listen, we hear.
  34. Unfortunately, tans fade and wrinkles last. 😉
  35. Life changes can happen anywhere because change starts within us. (the secret life of change)
  36. Never underestimate a full moon. It can take our breath away.
  37. Maybe growing old can be more about the “growing” and less about the “old”.
  38. The sand, water, shells and sky consistently deliver mystery and stability.
  39. A country song in all of it’s simplicity can reveal our human complexity.
  40. What we know doesn’t make us better.
  41. Sometimes a year ends before we feel “ready”
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Trees line up to greet you…

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The symbolism in nature often takes my breath away. I saw this picture on my friend’s FB wall and immediately thought about how we journey to roads of adventure. But there is a road that leads home. When we journey back, we find…

The trees line up to greet you. They stand tall but bend and drape their branches up and over to shield and protect. Like friends and family, they welcome the wanderer home.

Summer Adventure 2015 update

I never could have imagined the extreme highs and lows of this trip, such magic mixed with chaos. When we put our things into storage, there were family and destinations on the calendar, but the true experiences are so much more than black sharpee ink on the blank days of summer.

We’ve has so many highs and lows in our first two months.

Reconnecting with Friends.  It’s been surreal to spend so much time with friends from all stages of our lives. Meeting up for coffee or dinner. Seeing the sights. It’s a rare thing to bring friendships from the past and usher them into the present. It feels like a chance of a lifetime, to know someone as they are, not just as they were.

Family. I’ve seen relatives that I have not seen since childhood. I saw aunts and uncles  that I’ve missed. I  sipped coffee (mixed frothy with coconut oil) and watched the birds, read scripture, listened to podcasts with mom and dad and David.  These precious times make you feel like the day is destined for greatness. Blueberry picking, fishing, spending the day with my sister, being with nephews and nieces…the special-ness stacks up and humbles me.

Beach walking. Pensacola, Destin, Edisto Island.  While I left my footprints in these places, it is probably more accurate to say they left their mark in me. One particular day, Brooke and I went to the beach together. She came down for a week’s visit. As we got on our floats and rode the waves, I couldn’t help but look over and feel my tears mix with the ocean. She is strong and brave. This summer trip was not on her list of “things to do at 16”.  I am proud that she has carved out space for what she wanted. But I sure do miss her.

Our Business. Wow, how long have David and I desired to work together again!?  I’ve relished watching him connect, coach and learn new skills. We reached a business milestone together last week and could not be more proud to be part of such a great team! I’m asking the hard questions, desiring to go deeper and dream bigger!

One morning in Edisto, David and I got up at 4:30am to ride bikes on the beach looking for sea turtles.  We found the tracks, but just missed seeing her go back into the water. We stayed and drank coffee and watched the sunrise.  We saw a guy there with a time lapse video camera. We chatted a moment then went for a walk.  We got back to our bikes and he left us a note in the sand that he was a photographer. He said he had captured a cool picture of us and to email him at __.

All along the way, we have been reminded of the beauty around us, within us and behind us.  Sometimes revisiting history, highlights the grace, don’t you think? Funny how things re-shape and morph as time goes by.

I made a trip to MO to be with Bethany and help take care of Moses. She miscarried again and had complications. Ir’s another low.  But I can’t help but think how life is so punctuated with many highs. It doesn’t take away the pain, but allows us strength to bear it.

2 Leaves in the Windshield

autumn-falling-leaf-2Leaves, glorious leaves. I can’t get enough of their vibrancy. Here in Colorado we have some trees that aren’t deciduous and they stay dark and green year round. In some ways this highlights the color of the changing trees. The dark backdrop is perfect to showcase the red and golds.  So much of life is about contrast and perspectives.  “Aha” moments settle upon us in the most unique ways.

I left work on Thursday with a little heaviness. As I pulled out of the parking lot I saw two golden leaves hinged in my windshield wipers. They made me smile and relieved my mind for a minute.  But I hated the thought that they were trapped. As I drove I could see a good portion of both leaves were free and fluttering with the wind from the car ride. They weren’t huge leaves but because of where I sat, they looked bigger than the massive trees in the distance. In MY view, they were “large and in charge” so to speak,  and impacted my world.

With their veins prominent and intricate, they were my close reminder of the beauty of fall. 2 little leaves. 

Is it too far-fetched to draw life lessons here? Sometimes the tiny things can bring the most impact, not because of size but because of the where/when they enter life. All at the same time I was reminded of my minuscule part in this world but also the potential massive impact I could have. True, I can’t be everything to everybody, but I can be someone to somebody. I can make a difference in my sphere-my windshield. 🙂  Are you downplaying your influence? Are you shining brightly on the windshield where seem to be”trapped”. Yes, there are many things about this life you don’t get to choose, but wow! There are so many things you CAN choose. Let that sink in…it may take awhile, huh?

I secretly wished for the leaves to become free and float to some beautiful resting cemetery of their own choosing. But they only move with help from without. I thought about choosing a place for their final rest, but there is the matter of the wind. Wind has it’s way, it’s beautiful way of swirling and dancing. It is truly strength and beauty and I’m powerless in comparison. So I let them stay on my car, riding around with me, reminding me of seasons and the tension between contentment and contending for change.  There are so many lessons there, imbedded in the leaves.

I didn’t get to witness their exit from the windshield. Yesterday evening only one remained.  I smiled and silently cheered at the thought of release, and the mystery of it. When did it leave and where did it land? Today as I dropped Brooke at work, I looked, and to my surprise, the other was gone as well.

You never know when the freedom keys will turn the lock. You just never know.

Funny the friends we make though life’s seasons.